It is going to be hard for the two of us. Finally you acknowledged you are feeling sad. You used the words devastating and it broke my heart. A thousand memories came flooding back. Our first night together, the way you would wake me up in the morning and wipe a hot towel across my eyes. Those amazing nights in beautiful restaurants, staring deeply into my eyes. In your hands I felt small and protected. I loved it when you called me your girl! I have spent so much time and effort blocking these things out, but I know they need to be confronted. If there are tears; so be it. I am ready for the ache in my chest. I am ready for there to be a big gaping hole in my gut. Part of me wishes I could take you with me when I leave, so we can continue the adventure together…but it really can’t be.
Anger is so much easier.